Separation

You know what, the schedule is out. And the bad thing about it is... aku terpisahkan... Emang sih, nggak sendirian. I have two close-friends with me. But....

Why? I'm too over-reacted?
Yes. Because you've never experienced a position when you're not a friend for people that you believe as your friends. Because you've never experienced a position when people only know you when they need you. I HAVE. Too much? yes, friends mean so much in my life.

Yes, maybe you can get friends easily. You can talk to new friends easily. But I can't. It is easy for you, but it's not for me. -_- saaad~~~ I am not born to be a social butterfly.

Will there be someone that I can joke about the lecturers with...
Will there be someone that will text me and ask me, "Where's our class today?"
Will there be someone that will chat me, "Writing gimanaaaa?" "UAS gimana? Surem..."
Will there be someone who cares?


Will they miss me? Because I WILL definitely miss them, one by one.

What is the thing that they gonna miss from me? My laughter? My silly act? My advice?

Oh, okay maybe they will only miss my tissue, mirror, comb, and candies...

I don't really know

It's love. Yeah, love. What things you don't know from love? The love itself.

There's a person who loves a girl, but the girl doesn't love him back.
There's a girl who loves a man, but that man loves her as a sister.
There are two people in love, but they just want to love without any bound.
There are two people in a relationship, but one of them doesn't love the other. It's only a pity.
There are two people in a relationship, but it's only for a game.
There's a person who loves you madly, really wants to have you like a crazy, but you will never realized.
There's a person you love, but he thinks it is friendship.
There's a person you love, but you can't have him at all, because he chooses other girl,
There's a person you love, but then life let him left you cruelly.
There's a person you loved, but destiny never give you a chance to meet him again.
There's a person you hate, but he loves you with all of his heart.
There are two people fight because of love.
There are two people hurt each other because of love.
There are two people who are deeply falling in love, thinking about each other.

Me? I don't understand what is love, because love once visited me, and then he abandoned me like a lost puppy. Love tells us to only look at someone, cherish him like he is the only thing we have. But then, love doesn't come to that person. Love dies, love will vanish.

Newly weds say "I love you" every morning for only one year. After that? NO.
This is Love. Irrational. Like an opium, people want to taste it, but then they can't let it go. They're being controlled by that irrational thing which can leave them anytime.

So love, do visit me, trap me in your sweetness, but never leave me before you visit him and tell him that he should love me.

Love, please do visit the right person.

No More Autumn This Year!

I was shocked when I saw this news. Chun left Fahrenheit. The other members will continue their activities as three. Oh, GOD! I hope it wasn't real, it was another rumor, but of course it was! Clearly, 22nd of June, HIM stated that Chun has officialy left Fahrenheit. Bad dream came true!

I knew someday this thing will be happened. I knew, and I understand. One day, the most solid group would be broken. I can understand his decision, since he is already 31, and will become 32 this October, but still, I can't stop my feeling. I love this group, Fahrenheit. They have been be a part of my life for this 4 years. The one that I always proud of, suddenly left me, it feels like he abandoned the fans. The other members were clearly sad. We read their feelings through their weibo posts.

That's why the other fans were mad and disappointed. They keep fighting till now. My friends from another country also felt the same way. But, we chose to be smart. There's no need to fight. It would make things worse. I hate to say this, but as a fans I have to support him no matter what happened. It was his decision, and I have to believe that decision is the best for him. He will be happy with this decision, he will leave Fahrenheit to be a good man and protect his family.

That makes this year, there will be no Autumn. My Autumn has gone, and I don't know what to do about. Spring, Summer and Winter have to fight without the wise Autumn. See you, Chun! I hope I can meet you one day. I believe in you! :)

I Have No Idea

Hmm, I want to make a short story (or maybe a fan-fiction), but now I have no idea. I want to make a dramatic and romantic yet funny story (it's hard, isn't it?) huhuhu.... I need some references. Hmm, maybe I will watch some Kdrama later, 哈哈哈。。。

Anyway, I always have a special plot for the characters. (evil laugh) It's my style, to make my lead character has some painful experiences. Am I mean? Oh, I just want to make my stories more interesting. In my last story-which I've erased- the male character (played by Aaron Yan) had a weird disease called aplastic anemia (>.<"). 对不起哦，亚纶。。。(I'm sorry, Aaron)

Aaron Yan

My next project maybe will have Onew as its main character. I need to find a suitable female lead actress.(^^)

Onew

So, let me thinking about it. Hahaha, I feel I am like the director of a movie... hehe...